Jim's Pen is Central Page is extremely proud to present our ninth

Dick of the week:

"Aaron"

Week 8

I met Aaron at a gay square dance fly-in near where he lives. He first attracted my attention due to his bright-eyed, outgoing personality. But then I noticed the crotch of his jeans. Was he aware of how obvious that bulge was? Did he do that on purpose? Is it a blessing or a curse?

The answers are yes, yes, and yes. We sat down with him recently and learned why.

I'm a little bit horse... I was a bad boy last night and a guy with a big dick was shoving it down my throat. All the way down, and holding it here! [He laughs.]

So just how big IS your dick, anyway?

I don't know; I've never actually measured it. I've been told it's 8 inches, but those may be "dick inches."

What are "dick inches"?

They are the relative measurement that most dicks tend to be measured in. Certainly not true inches! Relatively, it's 8 inches.

When it's hard, can you fit both hands next to each other along the shaft?

Yes.

How much longer than two hands is it?

Just about exactly two hands.

How big around?

I've not measured it, but my thumb and middle finger won't go quite around it [he holds up his hand to demonstrate]. I'm not sure, though. I don't think it goes all the way around.

One thing I noticed about you is that when you wear jeans like those you wore when I met you, it's really obvious exactly where your dick is underneath the blue denim. Someone could walk over to you -- as I did at one point -- and touch your jeans in exactly the spot that has your dick underneath. [I reach over and do it again.] Do you do anything to feature that aspect of your jeans?

Not purposely.

No bleach? No sandpaper?

No. No -- it happens naturally.

How often do people do that? Touch your dick through your jeans, just where the wear pattern indicates it is?

Not very often.

How did you discover that your jeans naturally wore themselves into this pattern?

When I started getting holes in that location.

How old were you?

Nineteen, twenty.

Did it please you that holes developed there?

I guess.

Did you patch them?

No.

Throw the jeans away?

No, I'd just save them for appropriate occasions.

And those would be?

The appropriate bars and/or dates.

When you wore the jeans with holes, did you wear underwear?

Never with jeans. With or without the holes, I don't wear underwear with jeans.

So you're not wearing underwear now?

No.

Why don't you?

I don't like wearing underwear -- period -- only when absolutely necessary, such as when I'm wearing a tux. My dick showing through a tux is perhaps slightly inappropriate! At least on center stage. I sing with the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles, among other things.

So not wearing underwear is an important way to let people see, in spite of your clothes, how big a dick you have?

[Dubiously] I suppose. I also don't like underwear; I find it uncomfortable.

Do you look at other guys' crotches when you meet them?

Oh, absolutely. [He laughs.]

How come?

Why wouldn't I? [More laughter.]

So do you lose partners who think that you're too big for them?

No, never have.

Which do you prefer: a big dick or a small dick?

Big dick is not required, as long as the owner knows what to do with it, although I CAN be impressed!

What would "knowing what to do with it" involve?

Sometimes you find a guy who has a big dick who lets it lie there and wants you to do all the work. Since I was young I have found an unusual talent at taking things very deeply down my throat. Perhaps all those singing lessons have paid off! So finding a man who is willing to fuck it deep down my throat and hold it there is always a pleasurable thing. Finding someone to return the favor is equally as pleasurable.

That was going to be my next question: What do you like to do with YOUR dick?

Well, I suppose it could be summed up in a quote someone told me: "I'll bet that when you're a bottom you're a real pig" and I replied, "Yes, but when I'm a top I'm a mean fucker!"

Tell me more.

Oh, I like giving and taking equally well. I suppose I have my moods either way. But I generally prefer equal turnabout.

So when you're a mean fucker, what's mean about you?

I suppose my favorite position would be pinning a guy face down and drilling him home [he grins].

But what's mean about that?

Oh I suppose the forcefulness of it.

You show him no mercy?

[He raises his eyebrows and smiles.] I won't force anyone, but if they are agreeable to being given no mercy, by all means!

And how do YOU like to get fucked?

With equal force, but preferably on my back. I like to watch the expression of someone giving it to me good!

And what expression would that be?

Oh, the look in his eye, the contorted facial expressions. And I suppose I'm a romantic sleaze... I like to find a man who likes to kiss. It seems to be a rare art these days.

So you'd be on your back, him fucking you, kissing you at the same time. And since this is the Dick of the Week interview, what would your dick be doing?

Well, if he wasn't playing with it, I would be.

What's the biggest dick you've ever had sex with?

It was a REAL 10 inches -- I mean, on a ruler. The equivalent of 12 "dick inches."

The smallest?

Probably not anything I committed to memory.

Which is easier to keep hard -- a big dick or a small dick?

That depends. I don't think there's any relation to size.

What's your favorite way of USING your dick?

Good question. I suppose my favorite way to come is up somebody's butt.

I take it that from time to time guys come on to you just because you have a big dick. Is that true?

I suppose so.

How does that make you feel?

I might as well use the assets that were given to me! [He laughs.]

How often do you get the impression that someone is interested in you only because you have a big dick?

I guess I've never known that was actually the case.

How old were you when you first realized that your dick was bigger than most other guys'?

Oh, probably by 19 or 20.

How did you figure that out?

By being told so.

So it didn't happen in high school gym class, for example?

No, but not long after that.

The commenting people would be...?

Sex partners. [He grabs his head and twists it around in order to pop the joints in his neck.]

Does your father have a big dick?

I've never seen it hard, but yes -- I believe he does.

How big does it appear to be?

Well, it's a lot larger than mine when soft.

Is your father cut or uncut?

Cut.

And you?

Cut.

If someone saw you in a bar, and figured out you had a big dick, what would be the best line for him to use to get you interested in him?

Oh I suppose I like the direct approach -- telling me exactly what he'd like me to do with it.

What would be the worst line?

I'm not sure there is one! [He laughs.]

Which do you prefer in other men? Cut or uncut?

I don't have a preference, but I certainly like uncut.

And cut?

Um hum. But uncut is always an added pleasure.

Why?

Perhaps it's the sleaze factor. Something about an uncut dick that's more erotic.

Have you ever danced naked?

Yes, I've square danced naked at Moonshine tips.

What does your dick do when you dance naked?

I don't think I noticed!

When you're dancing naked, do you think about how moving your body will move your dick?

No.

Do you do anything on purpose because of the way it's going to cause your dick to swing?

No.

What do you like the most about your dick?

Good question. It's perfectly straight, has a nice large head, and precums quite a lot.

What do you like the most about having a dick, period?

Now THAT's an interesting question. I'm not sure how to answer that. [His hand rests directly on top of his crotch, which he lightly strokes at this point -- very subtly.]

Give it a try anyway.

Hmmmm. You are persistent! That question is right up there with what is the meaning of life. I really don't know.

What do you like about having a big dick?

[He laughs again, then crosses his legs.] I suppose it frequently adds to someone's attraction -- certainly in a sexual scenario.

What do you like the least about having a dick?

Oh I suppose if the thing were removed I'd be perhaps not as happy, but more productive. It DOES have a mind of its own.

What do you like the least about your dick?

Oh, such philosophical questions! I suppose I wish it were uncut.

What do you like least about having a big dick?

Nothing that I can think of!

Has your dick ever gotten you in trouble?

[He pauses for a bit.] I'm trying to think if it was the dick that got me in trouble. Well, I have been arrested a few times, so I no longer visit the George Michael Recreation Center!

You happened to mention to me that you have gone to "barebacking" parties. What is that?

Sex without condoms.

Why does barebacking feel better for you?

I and a lot of people -- for whatever reason -- have a problem with condoms. I used to counsel people on safe sex, I used to work for the state as an AIDS educator, but nonetheless if a condom is put on my dick it goes soft.

Does barebacking feel better for your dick when you fuck a guy?

Yes.

What's the difference?

It's not just sensation; it's something I can't explain and never have been able to explain even when I did practice safe sex exclusively. It was always a problem.

Does barebacking feel better for your asshole when a guy fucks you?

Oh, absolutely.

What's the difference?

For one, there's something very erotic about using nothing but spit for lube.

Anything else?

The feel of skin to skin contact.

How much of it is the actual way it feels physically, in your asshole or around your dick, and how much of it is the mental feeling of "Oh my God... he's not wearing a condom"?

Oh probably at least 50-50.

What do you like about barebacking parties?

There seems to be an added atmosphere of sexual intensity. Everyone seems to work at that intensity, knowing that everyone is there solely for the purpose of bareback sex. It seems to fuel that extra bit of sleaze.

Are you usually nude at the party?

Either nude or just my boots on.

What about AIDS and HIV?

Well, I am HIV positive, and only bareback with other consensual HIV positive people. At the bareback parties, that is something that is explicitly understood by all participants. The purpose of barebacking is not to infect unwilling people, but consensual enjoyment. The theory circulating regarding reinfection and mutation simply does not seem to be holding up in the clinical form. For one, the virus mutates in your own body, and with as many people as I know who bareback who are HIV positive and healthy, much, much more of them would be dead were that theory to prove correct.

NOTE: I have also been an HIV researcher on safe and unsafe sex. I do not engage in barebacking. I give Aaron's opinions not because I endorse them (I take no position on them here) but as a way to help people understand why barebacking continues. I agree with some things Aaron said about the practice, and disagree with others.

I know you have a Ph.D. -- what's it in?

Philosophy and religion.

Were you aware a couple of minutes ago that you were gently stroking your dick through your pants?

Yes.

Why were you doing that?

It started unconsciously, as it frequently does, but while I was doing it I became aware of it.

So why did you continue?

I didn't see any complaints!

How hard are you now?

Not very.

How hard were you then?

About the same.

OK, let's take some photos!

Sure!

This we do, and at one point during the photo session Aaron reaches over to my crotch and unzips my jeans. My increasingly hard dick pops out (see Aaron's photo page for a photo showing the beginning of his effect on me). Physically, Aaron is too hairy to be "my type," but I find something incredibly sexy about him, and I guess it showed. In a heartbeat, I would have turned that boy around, gotten him in a full nelson, spit on my dick, and fucked his brains out.
If it wasn't for HIV, that is.
You won't believe this, but it's true: this was the first time that I ever hugged/kissed/fondled a Dick of the Week -- that is, the first time I had found myself getting emotionally involved at this deeper level. Although it's always fun to photograph the guys for this feature, there was something special about Aaron that evoked this reaction in me, which had not happened before and has not happened since. I can't explain it, but it was wonderful.
I hate this epidemic. I hate this virus. I hate it to the bottom of my soul. Fuck you, you goddam fucking worthless no-good fucked-up batch of genes. FUCK YOU! You are part of the real world I have to live in; that's just the way it is. That doesn't mean I have to like it. You have no brain, no ability to be moral or immoral, no responsibility for your "actions" -- so it's really irrational for me to be angry at you.
But I don't care about any of that. FUCK YOU anyway. Go away. Leave my people alone.
Get the fuck out of my life!!

Whew! Sorry about that angry little interruption. I'll be back soon; I've gotta go jerk off now.

Let me see Aaron's photos.

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